Todesgott Vlad Christopher

20/01/2010

2012-01-19T22:57:00.000-08:00

HALO WORLD, ILOV3MYON3ANDONLYYGIRLFRI3ND~!! :p
HALO AWAKK~<333 ILOV3YOUU~!! XP

-From your ji3qi(Loving u sinc3 20/10/2010) :>

2011-12-28T11:16:00.001-08:00

-worri3d that im a bad boyfri3nd..-

2011-12-28T10:15:00.001-08:00

awakk ilysm..

2011-12-28T10:14:00.000-08:00

awwhh.. saya accid3ntally mad3 my sayangg f33l sadsadd.. ='[ im a big idiot..

2011-12-19T03:00:00.001-08:00

humms.. takpeluhh..

2011-11-30T06:18:00.000-08:00

takpe..

2011-11-29T09:51:00.000-08:00

-curls up into a ball on my bed with my blanket and hug myself to sleep-

nightmare..

2011-11-28T22:47:00.001-08:00

saya worried sangatt.. babyy..? where are u.. 1pm adii.. saya waitingg..

2011-11-27T19:40:00.000-08:00

hehe.. nbm.. -curls up into a ball with my blanket- saya rindu sayanggku..

2011-11-27T06:46:00.000-08:00

hehee!! x3 yayyy~!! babyy work finally endendd adiii~<33 awwhh.. imissmysayanggg~<33 :> HEHE

2011-11-25T07:42:00.000-08:00

awwhh.. today is the 25th adii.. hehe.. sayangg imissyou.. these few days saya has been half awake.. daydreaming about awakk and finding food to eat.. and missingyouu.. hehe my dear babyy saya sayangg awakk somuchh.. babyy ineedyou...

2011-11-21T07:53:00.000-08:00

='[ babyy seems like.. boredboredd of hubby.. or no mood for hubby these few days.. dk how to say.. just.. feeling so scared that my nightmare really become reality.. <33

2011-11-20T08:49:00.001-08:00

hehe!! hope after awakk work end adii got time to spend together before awakk go for holidays~ awwhh.. imissmysayanggthatilovesomuchh..

2011-11-17T03:11:00.000-08:00

imissmybabyy.. <33 hehe 9 and a half hours moree~!!

awwhh.. wondering what babyy is doing now at work.. eee.. awakk~ iwannuu~<33 7 and a half hours moree~ ;>

yayy awakk lunchtime soon adii~!! hehe!! (cant wait for awakk beepbeep) 5 hours and 45 mins moreee~<33

eee.. babyy sounded kind of marah and no mood just now.. hehe.. hope awakk isnt angry or upset.. 5 hours moreee~

imissmysayanggthatilovesomuchh.. eee.. and its just the first day of work onlyy.. howhoww.. hehe.. 7:17pm.. around 3 hours and 13 mins moree.. <33

-ready to go pick awakk up- ;> HEHEHEHE sayangg imissyouu~!! -wondering if awakk will be penatpenatt but happy to see hubby~<33- (lalalaa~ 1 hour moree~!!)

eeee.. -worried that awakk penatpenatt adii and need take direct bus home instead- (45 mins more till awakk works endendd!! imissuuuuuuuuu...)

awwhh.. oh no.. saya parents suddenly fighting and end up become late to go pick awakk up adii.. (15 mins till awakk work ends)

10:40 adii.. eee.. awakk~ iwantuu.. <33 (wondering if babyy work endendd adii and if hubby should now rush to take cab go fetch awakk still)

2011-11-09T08:04:00.001-08:00

Title: 20.10.2010

twenty ten, twenty ten,
this is a story of how we began~
what i wish i knew how to express to you,
i just cant seem to figure out how to
come hug me tightlyy and listen to my heartbeat going dupdup, dupdupp~

i love you now and forever, and we will live happily ever after~
even though we had conflicts and misunderstandings before,
i promise that i am yours, and that u are my all~

twenty ten, twenty ten,
sayangg i love you until death parts us with an end~
but even until then, my feelings will not change a single bit..
;P because iloveyounow,andforever
the end~<33

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SAYANGG~!! (this one hubby wrote for awakk about our anniversary but until now then put it onlinee.. xP sowwiieee~)

2011-11-08T21:39:00.000-08:00

hehe~!! -happyhappyy- x3 sent and fetched my adorable wifeyy from work todayy and got to see my adorable wifeyy smilesmileee~<33 awwhh.. honeyy seems so penatpenatt and legs sakit.. =[ -heartpainn and worried- hehe hope honeyy when start working adii wont have no mood and time for hubby or marah at hubby.. awwhh.. eee babyy iloveyouu~!! (L) hehe!! 11 more days~!! x3 <33

2011-11-08T04:21:00.001-08:00

hehe!! hubby try tahan 2 weeks~!! after the work period adii shld be still got time left in honeyy holidays we can spendspendd together~!! <33

2011-11-07T06:39:00.000-08:00

-finally finished the drawing of honeyy and finding that funny book to cheer awakk upp- hehe!! awwhh.. sweetheartt these few days seems a little upset and bored or irritated.. hope awakk will like it later~<33

2011-11-06T04:31:00.001-08:00

imissmysayangg.. -feeling lonelyy- awwhh.. where did babyy go..? <33

2011-10-31T08:13:00.000-07:00

awwhh.. awakk.. sowwiiee.. honeyy holiday 1 month gone adii and hubby exam finally finishing.. ='[ hope will get to spend time with wifeyy for the holidays.. hehe.. -sadsadd- eee.. imissyoubadlyy..

2011-10-28T11:22:00.000-07:00

='[ -sobs- sowwiiee sayangg.. its not that hubby dun like honeyy try workworkk.. just worried about honeyy safety and health.. 12hr x 14 2 weeks non stop = 168 hours in total no rest days.. hubby worried honeyy headaches or asthma and honeyy back not good.. need to stand 12 hours a day... hubby worried u knw...

2011-10-27T21:12:00.000-07:00

hehe.. nbm.. awwhh..

2011-10-16T05:27:00.000-07:00

='[ honeyy..? if u can see this message.. i think msn sabo-ing us again.. hurhurr.. -sobs- sayangg.. iloveyousomuchh..

2011-10-12T06:03:00.001-07:00

imissawakk.. iwannuu..

2011-10-11T21:53:00.000-07:00

8 more days~ 1 week + 1 day moree~!! HEHHEE

2011-10-10T19:48:00.000-07:00

hehe!! ;P 9 more days to our anniversary~!! <33333333333333333333333333333

2011-10-06T02:19:00.001-07:00

14 more days~<33 x3 hehe!! sweetheart iwannuu~<33

-sings that song-
Zakiah zakiah~<333

awwhh.. hope will have a chance to ask meetmeet with honeyy soon..

2011-10-03T17:54:00.000-07:00

heyyoo awakk~<3 iloveyouu~<33

2011-09-29T00:07:00.000-07:00

heyyoo honeyy~<33 hehe!! awwhh.. imissyouu~<33 -hubby studying hard now and wondering what honeyy is doing- muahhs~ hehe honeyy, hubby just wants u to know that iloveyousomuchh~!! x3 dun nervous or stressstress or sedihsedihh adii kayy..? we can do ittt~!!

2011-09-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

2011-09-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

x3 eleven hours moree~!!
sayangg iwantyouu~<33 HEHE imissyousomuchh~<33

2011-09-18T06:38:00.001-07:00

lalalaa~<33 heyyoo my adorable and beautiful dearest sweetiee sayangg~<33
hehe!! honeyy iloveyousomuchh~<33

awwhh.. awakk.. imissyouu~<33 hehe sowwiiee.. x3 if hubby has been sedihsedihh recentlyy..

-baobaoo- honeyy iloveyousomuchh~<33 :P lalalaa~

2011-09-16T07:24:00.001-07:00

hehe.. imissyou..

2011-09-13T16:27:00.000-07:00

awwhh.. abitt fever and no voice.. hehe honeyy imissyousobadlyy..
hehe.. saya takut..

2011-09-12T23:17:00.000-07:00

lalalaa~ 7 more days~<33 hehe!! sayangg iloveyousomuchh~!!
awwhh.. recover soon my sayangg~ hehe honeyy must stay strong and senyummm kayy..?

2011-09-12T01:06:00.001-07:00

honeyy, iloveyousomuchh~<33 hehe!! tomorrow, yayyyy~!! x3 -cant wait-
8 more days~<33

2011-09-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

chest and lung pains... hehe..

2011-09-06T17:51:00.000-07:00

-trying my best continue study too and praying for honeyy exam- ='[ honeyy iloveyousomuchh~<33

2011-09-01T06:39:00.001-07:00

saya takut..

2011-09-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

sieben Stunden..

2011-08-31T20:02:00.000-07:00

humms... hehe

2011-07-27T23:52:00.000-07:00

2011-07-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

2011-06-30T00:22:00.000-07:00

2011-06-08T00:51:00.001-07:00

hehe.. we've been together for almost 8 full months already... and i can feel it........

:P hey sweetheart, i know i wanna marry youu~<33

2011-06-05T02:36:00.001-07:00

back to your facebook~!! xP

new start with her

2011-05-23T17:35:00.000-07:00

2011-05-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

xP now ask me where to look nexttt~!!

2011-04-17T03:49:00.001-07:00

Nur Zakiah Binte Mohd Razif, go see your facebook~<33

2011-04-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

now, check my tumblr~

2011-03-31T05:55:00.000-07:00

go see my tumblr~

7:39pm

2010-05-24T04:38:00.000-07:00

7:42pm..... 24 may, 2010............ the dreams are back...

4:16PM

2010-01-24T00:16:00.000-08:00

... i miss ur presence.. u used to visit my blog then ask me why didnt i update...... now i update.. but.... i dont think you visit my blog anymore........... hehe

1 more week till the end of the month.... exactly one more month to my birthday.... and 13 more days to yours.....
24/jan/2010... Sunday +>
i cant believe it... this week.. i actually turned up for artclub/Zhaborclub/Homeworkclub/slackclub.... LOL!!!! and that was the 3rd time i ever showed up, in the whole of my 5 years in the sch. main objective was to confirm the rumors that the canvases are back..... yep its true lol... i finally got the chance to steal a glance at my N level canvas again! wth i felt like a penguin on the equator..... all are lower sec zhabors.... ~.~ only guys there were like.... me, jinkai, tingwei, and jiaxuan...

just started teaching engkiat recently, about how to read scores..... he absorbs the information very quickly, and he already knows almost everything he needs to know about reading the notes from the scores. just like when i first tried to play a song on the piano, his hands are still not used to hitting the keys on a flat plane. gave him some scores to try on his keyboard at home to defrost his hands...

lovely afternoon..... *yawn*.. good music, nothing to drink, uncomfortable chair and it feels like a microwave oven outside....... what more could i possibly ask for...? thats it.. ima just go take a nap to help time pass faster....

9:39Pm

2010-01-17T05:39:00.001-08:00

VCXLLL+> 17 January, 2010
Went out for dinner with Mr Neu in the late afternoon.... we ended up eating at Swensons =D i really enjoyed the chicken baked rice, was my first time trying cheese on rice LOL. and to my surprise.... its good. LOL Mr neu had some bizarre soft shell crab pasta thingie(it looks awesome though) + chocolate ice cream tower haha!! Ahhh i feel like i just put on another Kilo Dx !..... their ice cream is.. so.... DAMN....... sweet that my tongue was literally bleeding.... while eating, we chatted alot about his overseas teaching trip and the new changes made to the school........... somehow we ended up talking about past relationships and siblings lol..... haha!
steady~ its a deal! ill treat you back after i get my first pay. =P

Played badminton in the evening to try sweating at least a lil'.... was waiting for jinkai to arrive when out of the blue, a bunch of primary school kids started fighting at the playground..... then one of them fell and started screaming in some alien language. it was entertaining as hell to watch LOL xP

*sigh*..... and then the perfect way to screw up my day... of all the things that could happen, i bumped into my ex while walking home...... swt..
... time flies huh?..... its already been so long... feels like its already too late for me to revert back to the real me both physically and mentally. Now that i think about it.... i've already been pretending for so long... i've actually gotten used to it... like an actor given roles to perform... i created so many different copies of me to suit the likes and dislikes...
now i just feel empty and... sick.......... for not being able to even remember what i truly am like....... >.> *shrug*
homework wise........ ..... xD havent really had the time to start doing art coursework, been so busy trying to catch up on my maths and humanities that i totally neglected my sciences LOL. this year feels like a Gone Case year already xP *sigh*.. everyone at the start of the year kanchiong spider rush rush rush rush rush till i also sian diao liao... kns!...

<+- :. 11:27PM, 黑冰

2:58pm

2010-01-16T22:39:00.000-08:00

No. of times / The school's cute new CCA system!
absnt 1time / 1 detention~ YEA!
absnt 2times / 1 detention + something retarded!
absnt 3times / 2 detentionz + something retarded! + parents involved
absnt 4times / 2 dententionz + something even more retarded!!!~
+ maths crash courses + science practicals + art coursework + humongous art canvas + homeworks = not logical. dont have enough hours in a single day.

everyday go home = gan pua late adi + there will still be piles of homework waiting for you = will neither have the time nor concentration left for any revision... zzz pcb.. an chua pop up this system more power than NTUC reward pts system? win liao lor, now got one new thing to worry about.. -sigh- how much can you possibly salvage in below 3 months for cca? is it really THAT beneficial and worth wasting SOOO much time for it?

3:42AM

2009-12-24T11:42:00.001-08:00

time now... is 4:32AM...... all the frustration and confusion is preventing me from falling asleep....

you told me that you were so used to having my accompanying all the time... you told me not to leave.... but in the end you told me not to be like we used to, and only talk to you when i have something to say... or else sooner or later there would be nothing left to say.... okay... but then your father returned... so i dared not approach you unless you approached me to prevent getting you into trouble.....
yet you did not approach me at all..... so what was i supposed to do..? i never forgot you... i was there biting my lips waiting for you the whole time... but does that mean a thing to you anymore..? ..... 我无条件的等待 no matter how painful or tiring it is...... now i can no longer see myself in your eyes....

i broke off contacts with all my gans except my nu er and one inactive gan mei cause you do not like guys with alot of gans.... i stopped gaming.... i put on my specs.... i started playing the piano again despite my headaches... all for you... for giving you all my attention....

now that J is back.... all the time we spent together.... all our promises... all the late nights... all the nonsense we did and the crap we talked about... the piano.... the outings.... its as though everything that happened over the past few months never happened before and i no longer exist huh....? hahahahahahahaa....... so till the end... i was still just a temporary replacement....... did i not try hard enough to win your heart....? was i not there for you whenever you needed me...? was i unreasonable in any way...? did i not give you your space....?

i read through the conversations between us that i saved in the past.... countless times.... because i missed you.....
christmas.... thought it would be a good timing.. to start talking to you again... i have that habit of just sending the same one message to a whole group of my contacts at one go during festives..... so that i dont have to type the message again for every single individual..... "i dont think thats the real reason" and "not my business anyway".... it was a small and simple matter... did you really have to reply me as though i had other hidden motives in the "Send to Group" even after i apologized? and then kill me by saying it like.. i am a complete stranger or an enemy to you...? i can no longer reach you........... i dont know how to approach or face you anymore..... because i am no longer allowed to............................ are you signaling to ask me to leave...?

merry christmas..... 25th december 2009 -christ......

1:30AM

2009-11-23T09:26:00.000-08:00

Owe you one can of Rootbeer. - Vlad Christopher, 24/11/2009

10:21

2009-09-24T06:17:00.001-07:00

Sitting here.. trying to find inner peace within my rotting corpse... struggling to stay calm and not go bananas....
The sunlight was blinding and the heat, merciless; Even my schoolbag felt like it was on fire.
I walked home again today, all alone.
Started by going out of the side gate of my school and walking to Esso.
Crossed the road to my left and went straight non stop for around 45 minutes, until i reached the old folks home. Then i went straight some more till i reached the library, turned left and cut through the bus interchange. Continuing on, i reached the sports hall/stadium, staggered past the swimming complex, staggered through the god damned Tampines Central Park... and finally, staggered into the lift. The moment, the god, damned, lift doors closed. EVERYTHING looked Blood red and a Fcked up purplish blue and a disgusting white green.
Total time taken to walk from sch to home at a steady pace without a single break: 1 hour 7 minutes.
Asshole ball thing(i believe u call that the tonsil?) that is supposed to be hanging at the throat is so swollen that it would sometimes slide into my mouth and i would choke and gargle and have to try to painfully gulp it back into my throat.. also currently having an irritating blocked and runny nose, perfectly accompanied by a fever and non stop vomiting..

Been thinking and worrying alot..
about my father...
the mental health of my mother...
my elder brother's heart....
i've more or less always been alone.. never had anyone i could talk to about things.. maybe it's been too long le bah.. im used to it and now im more or less anti social and ridiculously shy... whenever i had problems... or arent feeling too good... or need someone to talk to.. i can only keep everything to myself and now i just feel... numb about everything... studies... seriously cant find the motivation i had before anymore... finding life empty, no interest in anything at all...

been struggling to stay sane for the past 5 years... still alone.. still struggling on desperately as more and more problems come... im suffocating... idk..... without noticing it... i created another me that is the opposite of me... to keep me alive and keep me accompany.... idk..? idk how to say what i want to say.. i cant remember what i want to say anymore...

8:43 PM

2009-09-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

...8:49PM Friday..
This should be my final artwork bah.... Didn't know what face to draw in sch.... so..
I just looked into the mirror at my reflection and drew what i saw....
Facial Expression: Pain in the heart... Fighting to stay sane.. Agony...

Sitting alone in this cold and dark room..... i thought about many things..... Thought about everything that happened today..... forgetting how to go home.... stoning in the middle of the road.....
it really did happen as it did in my dreams..... on this night............
it isn't.. just a dream.....

11:22AM

2009-09-11T20:22:00.000-07:00

-12：22pm
刘杰琦.... 你几时才肯说出真心话呀?!
You are already decorated with Algor mortis and Rigor mortis all over...
how many more times are u going to let chances slip past you?
what are you trying to prove?
for what...?
cant you be honest about your feelings for once...?
why plant the seedlings of misery in yourself..?
others will be happy but what about you?
whats the point of feeling miserable and heartache afterwards?
nothing will change....
you never let anyone into your own world before....
... Das wasser soll dein spiegel sein... how many more times do you want to die before you try and stop trying to be so selfless..?

-刘杰琦

11:38PM

2009-09-11T07:58:00.000-07:00

Friday, 9/11/2009... 10:59PM...
Havent blogged for so long...
life has still been more or less.. feeling the same
: Empty and Meaningless...

Havent blogged.. for so long...
the dreams are coming back once again...
I myself, kept it a secret from all... including myself...
Perfectly kept hidden for so long... Not.
It happened again earlier....
Eyes still hurt from it....
cant keep my eyes open for long periods of time..
Everything feels... so cold.....
Arms hurt as though the skin had just been shaven off....
Throat feels so dry.... ugh..

dont want to think of the pain..
all the thoughts i am subconsciously processing...
-Stop haunting me.....
dont want to think about it....
dont want to think so much...
Just keep pretending... that everything is fine..
that everything is normal...
And soon.. in afew moments.... all will be quiet again..
Zi hai.. to stay awake....
till very tired adi... but,
meine herz is still pumping....

Long time no post? 11:09PM

2009-08-17T08:09:00.001-07:00

One Example":
*sees a cup of water*
Is it warm? is it cold?
Is the water clean?
How long has it been there for already?
Who poured this cup of water?
Where did the person get the cup of water from?
Why is it left here like that?
Should i finish drinking it?
Should i pour it away?
What will happen if i just leave it there like that?
What will happen if i finish drinking it?
What if the person who poured the cup of water still wants it?
Will mosquitoes breed if i leave it here alone?
Should i help finish drinking it then?
What if the person who poured the cup of water sees me drinking it?
Where did the water originated from?
Was it from our country?
Was it from malaysia?
Is this shitwater?(NEwater)
What does it taste like?
What else can i do with this cup of water?
Where did the cup come from then?
What country was it made in?
What material is it made of?
What will happen if i drop it?
.... and much more.... (it took less than like.. 10 secs to think of this many questions?)

and... of cuz nobody just thinks all day and night about a single object or event (EG the cup of water)... i have so many different thoughts of different things "stacking" into my mind... so much that i fear its going to implode soon... *sigh* so i make myself get used to just saying whatever i am thinking, holding back my words only for special reasons..... to get rid of as many of these thoughts as possible...

i end up becoming a wierd person..... usually either too quiet thinking about things... or else when i have someone to talk to i can start talking non stop...... and most of the time i end up pissing ppl off or..... accidentally hurting someone... Have successfully kept the other side of me hidden.... (its like a split personality... its not watch too much TV... tyvm) using this method but recently i've been noticing that my brain is "breaking down" or "burning out" .....

language is affected.. no longer use as profound words as often as i used to, need a long time to think and have troubles phrasing out properly what im trying to express into words, even my physical movements feel so stiff and wierd nowadays....... getting quite intolerant towards simple pranks and small jokes... bla bla bla...

*Current few thoughts*
Whats my name?
When will it happen again?
Whats my point in existing in this world?
Will i be able to achieve anything great in life?
Where am i going to find money to feed my parents in the future?
Qualification, can i even get it?
What kind of job do i want?
What are the working hours like?
What is the pay like?
What kind of people will i be working with?
What kinds of problems will i face?
To get to this job i must be good in which fields?
Do i have any interests in the above mentioned fields at all?
What other job options are available?
Where will the working location be at?
Why do i suddenly feel so lonely?
Who can i talk to?
How can i contact them?
What do i want to talk about?
How long should i talk to them for?
Will they be interested in listening to what i want to say?
Who CAN i talk to?
Who are my friends and who are my foes?
...... okay its starting to get wierd... ugh feel dizzy like mad again now... its 11:49, im going to bed now... good night readers that have succeessfully reached this point of the post

11/06/09, 6:57- 7:37PM, time has officially stopped for my heart.

2009-06-11T03:57:00.000-07:00

if you ever read this... i want you to know that...

i simply did not want you to feel hurt when i leave.... but... now that i've confirmed i am not migrating anymore and it is just my father going to working in another country.... can you forgive me for that one lie.... everything i came up with to break us up that evening and afternoon through sms.... theres no point in that anymore... can we just forget that and start anew.... can i have that one second chance to make things right?

[s][b] YL [/b][/s] says:
bt
[s][b] YL [/b][/s] says:
im leaving
[s][b] YL [/b][/s] says:
-_-
[s][b] YL [/b][/s] says:
onli hurts both of us ryt

i simply rathered myself to feel the heartache instead of both of us feeling it...
how i wish i listened attentively to my father that night so that i would have never even begin making this mistake...

as i have always told you... i wont be going anywhere... ill always be here waiting. because you are the only one who knew my secrets and still accepted me.... the only one who was there for me while i was in pain.... the only one who likes me for who i am....

i never broke a single promise i have made with you before... and i wont...

i want to keep my promise till the end. i will wait for your return to Singapore......
you may never forgive me again... but i jsut want to let you know one thing.... Ich liebe Dich, sorry for that one lie... that one biggest mistake i made in my life.... good luck and take care..... and if you can.. give US a chance....

i finally understand the meaning of Una voce... volo non memento.-" (In one voice, what i want is not just memories of you, i want you. i was stupid to have mixed cleef into this relationship...)

i will never forget:
all the memories... all the late nights... that old song... my first time dropping tears cuz you were leaving singapore..... the promises... the games we played tgt.... the mark on my left hand... my fevers..... the merge.... my specs..... the polarbear.... your mood swing..... the mark on my forehead... the sheep's heart... burying that chain.... my shoulder's mark... rushing out of school.... finding my way around on mrt.... standing tgt with you in the mrt and you smiling back at me..... that lemonade..... pressing the lift button..... all the conversations.... the 2 rings i never got to give you.... the bar... the island.....

i feel so lonely and lost... all of a sudden...
a simple mistake i made...
that destroyed everything i ever worked so hard for.......
your trust and your feelings for me......
it feels as though my heart is being scrapped by many blades....
the smell of my tears is so salty...
so many questions i want to ask....
so many things i want to say to you.....

8:11AM

2009-06-10T17:11:00.000-07:00

finally.. an update..... and its about the biggest mistake in my life......
it all began with that lie about the suicide attempt..... why.......

Not in the mood to blog at all.... knuckles and legs still hurting from going berserk.....

8.00PM

2009-05-30T05:00:00.000-07:00

finally.. an update.. just a quiz i found somewhere

How much of your teenage life have you "messed up?"

[] Gotten kissed.
X Gotten a phone taken away in class.
X Gotten suspended.
X Gotten caught chewing candy.
X Gotten caught cheating on a test.
Total So Far: 4

X Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
X Didn't do homework over 5 times.
X Turned at least 3 projects in late.
X Missed school just because you felt like it.
X Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total So Far: 5

X Got your mom, dad, etc. to get you out of school.
X Text people during class.
X Passed notes.
X Threw stuff across the room.
X Laughed at the teacher.
Total So Far: 5

X Been in a fight at school, fist or verbal.
X Took pictures during school hours.
X Called someone during school hours.
X Listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours.
X Skipped a class period.
Total So Far: 5

X Threw something at the teacher.
X Went outside the classroom without permission.
X Broke the dress code.
X Failed a class.
X Ate food during class.
Total So Far: 5

X Gotten a call from school.
X Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
X Didn't take your stuff to school.
X Given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking.
X Curse during class/school.
Total So Far: 5

X Faked your parents signature.
XXX Slept in class.
X Cursed at your teacher.
X Copied homework.
X Got in trouble with the principal/the vice principal.
Total So Far: 5

Multiply by 3
Grand total: (5 x 6) + 4 = 34

Post as "I screwed up 102% of my teenage life"

mostly in pri sch though... waow at my own score. =D epic win

9:26PM

2009-05-13T06:27:00.001-07:00

hai minions~ konbanwa. Havent updated recently... no mood and been busy forcing myself to concentrate on revising. will try to update more often... meh ~ dont know what music to add to my blog.... =.=||

ANYWAY+>
-had a nice nap, woke up somewhere around 7PM and then suddenly something really fcked up happened..... i was like..... wtfzxscxvzxzzzsss?! ALMOST totally ruined my day

when i re-read the whole convo. nb i never do anything of that sort u come gan me. then i patiently replied u in a friendly tone and u reply me macam u emperor liddat. Kan bu.. no manners de kid. i never do de things u gan me nt enough still tell me go figure it out myself when i ask u to explain. anyway if u are reading this then good didnt want to tell you this face to face earlier to avoid any unnecessary conflict. Anything else contact me through PHONE; If nothing liao then F off.

updating later before bed. ^^ going back to revising Geography, simply had to post abt this dog.

6:07PM

2009-05-07T02:53:00.001-07:00

^^ forget abt those stressful stuff for nw. enjoying the relaxing music, lovely evening(7:13PM).. sky is blue and the clouds are red. The winds are cooling and gentle, a nice big cup of chilled apple juice and a mattress to lie down on. ahhhh im in heaven...

man... this song brings back so many memories, was buffering bleach at that time while i was playing a game(this song was playing in the background) when i met a certain someone and i was unable to play, had to off the game to turn off the song then go back into the game. ended up chatting with afew strangers on the phone and alot of stuff happened but that was where it all started.

i like this song but it brings back too many memories mostly bad... this song marks the start of my life whereby i actually started caring abt hw i look and stuff like that... also where a whole chain of events(things that happened in my life) would change my life upside down, from a happy go lucky guy that can make jokes out of practically anything to a depressed, quiet and anti social person......

My weapon is my wife,
my weapon is my life.
Be it to Give or to Take,
Life is the final scene,
Forever Inseparable,
my weapon and I..
Until i close my eyes.

9:22pM

2009-05-06T06:22:00.000-07:00

KAN BU, i watch this halfway jiu wan vomit blood niao..... used windows movie maker to cut out the ending part de theme song and set as my ringtone lol...... balanced the sound and it didnt sound like a group of demons singing it =D nw sounds so cute LOL.

6:50PM

2009-05-04T03:49:00.000-07:00

Don't -YOU- get it...? it's too late already. I chose to walk down this path which i myself knew would eventually lead to my own destruction. However, all that i have done and learnt, it is already far too late for me to turn back now. ^^ Thanks for playing that piece of music for me on your piano though...

ANYWAYS+>
-Yeah.. i know i promised to do a fcking picture story, but all the pictures went missing and i lost the mood to do it..... Then today in sch damn wierd+ scary lor..... got one malay girl from my class suddenly cut infront of me while i was walking and my hand accidentally bua tio her pigu -.-||| then she scream.

Then during lessons got one more female classmate keep staring at me.... ._. i look outside the window (the direction where she is seated) to laugh at a friend who got no chair to sit then she started keep looking at me even after i turn around and turn back.... then is like... dunno what to do.. feels so... un natrual to know gt someone staring at u..... .____."

Recently i havent been doing much lorh.... in sch ren tong right shoulder and left arm... then fight to stay awake..... zzz.... NB! today morning i did not attend the gathering... TT while i could have been having fun i was stuck there in the sch hall watching ppl get awards and the indian swine talking abt swine flu. =D Fck u _!_

9:05AM

2009-05-01T19:08:00.000-07:00

http://i206.photobucket.com/albums/bb152/vcxlll/1-1.jpg
我傻傻地等了你这么久, 原来你是有了新的.......
Soka...
你开心就行了...
三个月快乐.... 再见.....

Since Imeem is fcked up.. im just going to Embed music from youtube...

11:29PM

2009-04-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

Next post: Will try to do a picture story, stay around to see what i mean.

ANYWAY+>
-From this session, I've learnt that only through doing it yourself will a person be able to experience and put to test what he/she has planned and how to improvise on it. Only by going through it often yourself will u be able to understand, remember and thus be able to use what you have learnt freely, as though it is part of you; not something u have to think about.. it just comes out natrually.

Trying as hard as possibly to convey the message as short as possible in this mentally exhausted state.

To Derek: yeaaah.... when we get a chance to..... lets have another go at it again, it was crazy; Thanks for the match.
To Other members of Team HFGM: Thanks for showing up for this clan meeting. I look forward to seeing more of us the next time we gather.

11:12PM

2009-04-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

._. yeah.... u didnt see wrongly... that is medicine to help me fall asleep (i guess u can call them... sleeping pills...?) gan pua sian today, nth to do..... forced myself to sit in one corner and read thru the maths textbook + my personal maths notebook (trying to figure out what teacher have been teaching)... then trying out the questions....

*stares at the one day MC*
Note to self: Next time ask for 2 days instead of one day mc....... =X mwahahahha

6:46PM

2009-04-22T03:46:00.000-07:00

shit... i can finally hear it..... i can finally hear it but it is already too late isn't it....? its my fault is it not...? that one chance in my life that i allowed to slip past me..... hearing that music kills me ....it kills my heart.... my rage recognized that tune and i just went berserk..... i will never be able to forgive myself nor my pride for it....... i hate myself.... wish u never knew of my existence nor the existence of the other side of me......

and i know that at the end day..... i will wake up the next morning not remembering a single damn thing...... I've got only myself to blame....... sorry is all i can say for how twisted everything has become....

9:15PM

2009-04-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

im boredddd....... my art boards bu yao wo ler wuwuwuwu...TT all run away... nw i nid to redo my art.... from scratch.......... and im not even sure if my idea is acceptable lor... nid wait for the next art lesson. lan jiao.. A1 sized art canvas... shitxzcxvs..... so big .... omfg.... what to paint...?!

Recently havent really been in contact or gaming with anyone, been busy sitting alone in total darkness training my concentration and patience.. =/ im no longer as focused nor patient as i used to be.... must sort out my thoughts as well lol.

ahhh... so bored.. dunno what else to blog about....... >.> Da da da ~ Listening to music from Myndflame..... lols.....

To Team HFGM: Tral'fik SOULNIA !!!!!!!!!!!
To Tsen: lols, good luck with project H.A.B... Since the scale is quite small, the fire shld be small and intense.... or i suggest using a big flame and use something non flammable to keep the flames in one direction so that it doesnt end up touching the sides, or it will go boom too early and EVERYTHING will go up in flames.

3:04PM

2009-04-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

fck la..... art boards really missing liao, last night crawl around the whole house search also cannot find. redo now is 100% CONFIRMED not enough time for me to fin de... CMI liao la knn, i prepare go ITE or sit at the road side sell fishball noodles better.

Then this fcking church de ppl come my house kum lan? she is just my mum de old friend nia; even my lao pei also never talk to me like this, in what position is she to order lim pei around IN MY OWN FUCKING HOUSE? ta ma de, mei si guo. _!_

then im fucking sick and my art boards missing they ask me pray with them got use lah?! nb mai siao siao leh. ji bai kia more like possessed. when someone dont feel like praying, forcing that person to pray = that person is not sincerely praying liao leh ji bai. pray liao also dun see my art boards anywhere. still hallelujah ni ma ma lah knn, _!_ dun force me to draw my blade hor. come again and i force u leave duan shou duan jiao: I FUCKING PROMISE U.

Why today in sch when i was laughing that time the art teacher also thought i am going to cry? i myself am not surprised about my fcked up facial expressions. when was the last time i laughed not for the sake of not looking like an idiot in a group? when was that fucking last time i smiled because i was happy?

Nb, normally a happy go lucky kind of person like me will also dulan until BWG. PS, recently no haf happy posts, oledi dulan till wan force them drink their own pa xiao zhui liao, still ask me post happy stuff.

10:03AM

2009-04-14T19:00:00.001-07:00

>_> phlegm relatively clear and transparent ................................................................ except for the blood.... at least there was less blood than 2 days ago.... NOT !!!!!! ....... ugh...... ok i just cupped my hand so yeah... there was actually alot more hidden underneath(meaning still no improvement)

4 buddies pei me today : Blu tack, all the fcking medicine, toilet paper and computer... TT rawr ~

10:38AM

2009-04-13T19:38:00.000-07:00

Fucking shit, woke up and 6 things made me no mood go and Pon sch,

1: Mum simply ting bu jing chu what is kor dont like ppl bring food into his room, she do it dunno how many fucking times liao still ting bu jing chu when we tell her not to nicely. why kor dun like it? cuz will attract ants... even though she did it out of good will and because she very teng my kor, also no use. cuz my kor will still end up shouting at her.. and its not that he is wrong or he is right or she is wrong or she is right..... 10% mood ruined already

2: Standing up that time suddenly blacked out and whole body went back to the weakened state like it happened on Good Friday but not as bad lah, on good friday i couldnt even walk straight and lifting up my arm needed great effort. finish my 4 injections liao already 7 PM. knn no time to go shower before go sch and last night i sweated like hell..... 60% mood ruined already

3: Received an sms from a classmate asking me abt smth i am so damn sure that i did not do before...... 65% mood ruined

4: Kena dao when i reply and ask why would i do such a thing...... 75% mood ruined

4.5: Nw thinking go sch will have alot of shit problems and i dun even know what the hell happened..... 80% mood ruined

5: Kena dao when i sms the other guy(they said i give a classmate's email to him) and ask when i got do such a thing and where got do such a thing....... 90% mood ruined.

5.5: Remembering that i MUST not let down my group and must go to school cuz only i have the file for the english project...... converted back to 20% mood ruined and quickly put on my sch uniform

6: Putting on my socks that time: received an sms from an old friend of mine's mother; saying that one of my best friends after the last time i visited him in hospital(2 days ago) in his bedridden state, has passed away thanks to cancer. knnbccb all of my mood is ruined and i just fucking threw the handphone on the floor and insisted that i am not going to sch no matter how much my father (talks nicely > talking nicely> talked nicely > getting irritated > starts shouting) i also refused to go.

even if i had gone to sch also late already; ppl that are late dunno got what fucking search bag for cigs and HP and dunno what other fucking crap the school suddenly came up with. LJ, if you were me, u will want go mah?!! i am not blaming anyone for me not going to sch today, just want to post about it on my blog to show hw fcking irritated i am. CB new sch rules. hao duan duan de, anyhow set new ones. nw make until me on the way to sch see the time late liao also dun DARE to go.

5:44PM

2009-04-10T02:44:00.000-07:00

=P shit, learnt 4 lessons today..

1: It is possible to outsmart and think 1 step further ahead of Engkiat's Father(Done it many many times) but definetly not both the Father and the Mother at the same time; Because no matter what, 2 minds working together will definitely be 100% more effective.

Even a strategist like me who had time and had planned everything out perfectly and when things started to screw up.. immediately have 10 new plans and am already starting to consider the consequences and putting myself in the opponent's shoes(thinking about their possible next move) also will get tricked....

usually a normal person would be tricked by the mother by the 2nd move and would reveal the truth accidentally but i planned one step ahead and managed to prevent that from happenening; but little in my whole damn calculations would i expect that the mother is cute enough to send the father to my block downstairs/Void Deck to check if engkiat's bike is parked there. ok fine actually i did but i did not expect her call and asking me what is my block number is cuz the father already reached. $&*^$&^$@ and only after she told me cuz she is sending the father to come check if the bike is here did i noticed the slight change in the pitch of her voice that seems to be telling me -You've finally Lost this mind game that has been dragged on for afew months.

=( meh. Not fair... oh well... at least i managed to "Play" on the "Same Level" as 2 adult's minds for the past few months. =P i surrender.

To EK: Sorry man, this time she planned 3 steps ahead of me.. LOL. hope u 2 have a happy 4 years anniversary at home! (damn im no longer as good as in the past D=)
To NN: o.o happy belated birthday ~
To WQ: Eh cb, dun think u quiet quiet = u dissapear = i forgot liao horr. I suggest u come find me and kill me before i one day kill you outside and u dont even notice it. _!_ ccb dog.
To Wind: Fck them la, what kind of friends are they? Traitors. At least TRY to give valid excuses if they want to cover up what they have done leh. KNNBCCB, They macam Gen Ben jiu didnt plan to cover up anything lor... bastard sia.

9:21PM

2009-04-07T06:20:00.000-07:00

To Wind: Great teamwork today lol.
To Mei Mei: Grats on getting the autography ^^
To WQ: nbcb, i tell u many times liao. your threats mean nothing to me. when i view someone as no longer a friend i will NOT hold back, come find me if u dare to.
To JX: mmm... Saturday 2 AM.

zzzz....... today slept for 2 whole periods during Chinese class... damn shuang..... last night couldnt fall asleep ma... 5 mins before lessons ended i woke up, asked for permission to go to the toilet and stoned in there then i returned to class to take my bag and went home.

Yesterday evening mum refused to eat again and i tried feeding and coaxing her into eat till i gan pua dulan and shouted. Don't get angry at her also cannot, get angry at her also cannot.... hais... tell me what u want me to do? and is not like shout liao she will listen sia.... dun shout also not right.

the more i think abt those problems the more i am sian diao... knnb still got alot of homework nid to catch up. and its not that i dont want to do or revise, i see the questions liao jiu already fcking give up, the notes i copy = waste paper only nia. dont understand a fcking thing. why? -Read On to find out why-

today, i gave teacher the boh chap face and attitude to show him i fcking dun care maths and his maths lessons liao, but why? -Read On-

recently got one day i never go sch cuz of some problems that occured at home and then i missed that one bloody maths lesson lor, nobody to ask abt what i missed out. all either dao or else lazy to say. damn funny hor?! now end up all the new fucking things teacher teaching abt maths i dun understand, Maths teacher said on Thursday can go find him for help after sch; find ge pi!!! nw art teacher also say nid stay back and go. tell me what to do leh? always fcking caught between 2 things. zzzzzzz !!!!!!!!!!

A poem/song i came up with while i was super depressed and while i was lost in my own world:
Seriously, i do not know what it means lol..... the words just sort of popped up.....

Dance into the madness, feel my Twisted Presence.
Enjoy the suffering, enjoy my loneliness.
A blind child that claws forward. Because it simply wishes to live...
Words of salvation, do not exist in my own hell.

Du bist nicht in der Stimmung? Kan Ni Na Bu!! =)

2009-04-04T20:27:00.000-07:00

O.O ...................................................... Boh Wei Gong......

To McS Koh: lol tio claw by me till your skin bleeding and infected all over still dun dare to fight back, at that point in time it was either u die or i die... dont worry about wether u are able to win or not, at least try and fight back. or just grab a weapon and kill me, understand? u wanted me to teach u right? then learn =)
To -WIND-: nice, we finally killed the bloody spider and the centaur LOL. Thanks for the drinks.
To The FinalKing: o.o how long more till u finish composing that song? ill listen to your music as many times as you want. We're both of the same kind anyway, stuck between the 13th and the 14th.
To Myself: Yeah... Move on sucker, =P you have a reason to live now. live for that 1 person you are willing to die for.
To Mei Mei: =o first time someone say im not ugly.... hao gan dong o~ ^^
To -You: You've given me your answer with your actions. You've left my life twice, this time if u are going to leave, just fuck off and never come back again.

My black blood ruins your white dress,
Your Yellow Light destroyed my Black Soul,
My Dark Thoughts were childishly allowed to to played around by You.
All that is left of me now is someone trying to be normal, ENOUGH of this.
I have never been so weak before... A Blind and deaf child clawing it's way forward into this world because it wants to live. *spit on the ground*
Sink into my madness, feel my twisted presence, i return kindness with kindness; stuck between the 13th and the 14th generation, i will not allow myself to sink further into all the lies. Welcome back to this world, -VCXLLL- Vlad Christopher Liu Jie Qi the 13th. Total conversion back to the old me in progress.

ANYWAY=> enough of that banter =)
- q.q waaa... end up i have to eat all the pizza myself... all never eat.... me ulcer eat till mouth bleed... so much barbeque sauce....... guess that is retribution for prank calling canadian pizza 3 times in a row in front of so many ppl LOL. BBs HUAT AH LOL.
Lol, havent used my training weapon number -XII- (12) for so long that i couldnt even draw/keep the blade with smooth motions.. feel like first time using -XII- liddat; D= i miss -XIII- (13) !!!!

Omg !!! should have completed all my homework on friday LOL!!!! now rushing my art boards like SIAO. gotta finish all before 3 PM !!!! O.O RUSH RUSH RUSHHHHHH!!!!!!! AAAA STILL GOT SO MANY CHEM AND MATHS NOTES TO READ THROUGHHHH.

11:44AM

2009-04-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

i feel like a penguin born on the equator... i feel so out of place.. everyone is like a stranger to me....
*sigh* My emotions are all mixed up.... feel like crying and but i feel like.... really dunno what is wrong with me ler.... people that know me long enough will know me as the joker that does not care what others think... now i just feel like .... totally opposite.... so lonely... life is so meaningless...

Meh... i still joke and laugh and try to look normal.. but deep down inside.. i know that i am already dead.... my emotions are dead.... im just pretending to be normal and trying to stay afloat and stay alive ..... shui neng liao jie wo...? shui neng bang wo liao jie shen me shi Guang? shui neng rang wo ai..?

Anyway=>
- a Convo between me and my elder brother's Ex.
-[c=#FF0080]mAnToU❤忘記你不如忘記我自己.[/c] says:
i later bring her go see doc

-VCXLLL: =/ i let 4 opportunities pass me by.... opportunities that would have definetly made my life feel alot more meaningful... says:
o.o ..... then u better dun drive

-[c=#FF0080]mAnToU❤忘記你不如忘記我自己.[/c] says:
she hving internal bleeding since last night after we went drinking

-VCXLLL: =/ i let 4 opportunities pass me by.... opportunities that would have definetly made my life feel alot more meaningful... says:
........ >_> all the more u shouldnt drive... later neh die also u make till she die...

12:26AM

2009-04-02T09:26:00.000-07:00

First of all.... i feel that the children in the siao lang keng are no different from other children, so what if they are slow at thinking and if they are not that good at following simple instructions? i feel that we should put them amongst normal students and just be more patient and show them more concern. if they are taught with the impression that they are retarded and they are taught to get so used to live with other retards then what is the point of creating schools like that? hais... its just like.. unfair to judge humans into the "clever" and "stupid" category as all humans are equal.
ANYWAYS=> -Oh well enough of my sentiments and lets get on to the nonsensical and the side of me that you guys are more familiar with.
-Featuring... Chi Test paper and Today's visit to siao lang keng de photos-

My Chinese Test paper LOL, Zai boh? only Tikum Tikum the MCQ, the rest all neh even bother to read thru.

Nice.. just like a normal sec school o.o

wah swee ! just nice im intellectually disabled and im 16 yrs old !! 2 more mths see me go sign up LOL.

lol. getting more and more interested in joining.

See that cool dude at the extreme left? Stand there macam runescape de goblin pose. LOL?!! i like that pose man. macam finding ppl to fight liddat

11:35PM

2009-04-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Anybody like the new music? ^^

A Comment from one of the listeners: .......................D: i just lost the will 2 live
Note to self +> Control yourself... do not slice open your own neck and bleed to death violently..... ^^ remain calm... remain calm....

ANYWAY=>
-ahhhh... NB.... xiang qi tomorrow nid go siao lang geng jiu sian diao liao... didnt do a single shit about my art boards either..... the more i look the more i get the feeling that i am going to fail art.... >_>

o.o saw this quiz somewhere... nth better to do i decided to try it out:
Only liked the last question...

Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
Nobody...? lol unless i have a stead lor, then that's a different story. and the word tied is kind of....

Who do you blame for your mood today?
My Aunts and Uncles.

Have you ever seen a dead body?
Yes, quite a few to exact... in fact so many that i am already used to seeing corpses.

What should we do w/ stupid people?
I normally do not Split/Judge humans into stupid and clever category but..
Try and teach them how to be clever, be patient and be kind towards them. but if they are not willing to at least try and learn and still me give an attitude... then... -Input your most cruel way of eliminating somebody here-

How long do you think you will live?
Definetly not past 1 year if my life continues in this direction

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Breathe.

The color of carpet in your bedroom?
Dont have one.

Last person you went out to dinner with?
Afew classmates during that gay workshop which extended on to 9PM

Are you spoiled?
Hmm.... maybe.

Do you drink lots of water?
What is your Definition of "lots" ?

What toothpaste do you use?
Hmm... i do not use toothpaste when i brush my teeth... stop making that face... o_o

How do you vent your anger?
Used to go berserk, since when i regain consciousness i will have no memories of what happened during the berserk.

The last compliment you received?
Screw this quiz. i am going to start answering ridiculously for the next few questions. >_>

What are you doing this weekend?
Conquer the opposite HDB Flat.

When was the last time you threw up?
When i saw your mother's corpse.

Is your best friend a virgin?
No, he did it with your mum.

What theme does your room have?
I will gladly invite u into my room for a tour. But do not expect to leave with your arms and legs intact.

When was the last time you were at a party?
At your Mother's funeral.

Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
Which one are u? (Note i said WHICH.)

Would you ever join the military?
I first tossed a grenade when i was 3 years old !!! please believe !!!! >_>
The last website you visited?
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Hmm.... i am considered a human(person) so i guess.. myself...?
Or else it would be with my classmates(Class photo)

Last person you went to the movies with?
Koh Eng Kiat (Friend for 11 years. Known him before Pri sch and we went thru the same Pri sch and almost every year same class)

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
It has already passed.

Number of layers on your bed?
Tilam + Bedcloth + Blanket ..... = 3

Is anything alive in your room?
Me and my pets, Arca and Arce.

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
no idea....

What are you looking forward to right now?
Somebody saying that she loves me.... >_<>

11:56AM

2009-03-31T20:49:00.000-07:00

To one of my Best friends i have known since primary school; One Minute of silence.=>
-To Txe: Why did you not tell me earlier.... why wait till when you are on your death bed then you write us that letter..... why? What do you expect me to do about what you said in the letter now that you are dead...? damnit..... damnit..........................

shit..... everything is seriously going wrong.... feels like im being isolated.... friends are dying one by one and everyone around me seems to be getting colder and colder... it feels as though this is a game of chess and the opponent is slowly eliminating my allies one by one and pushing me into a corner without noticing it myself....

Mum came into my room at 4:30 AM last night, knelt down beside me and started praying in wierd languages other than praying in tongues.... i told her if she wants to sleep in the room she has to bring a blanket in because it is very cold.... and she just kept praying and praying and then suddenly she started crying and sobbing out loud for no reason. This is not normal... is she possessed or what? she doesnt understand the meaning of sleeping at night anymore.... fck.... ended up skipping school because of the lack of sleep.... if i had gone to school today i will definetly be sleeping in class......

5:58

2009-03-29T02:58:00.001-07:00

Carved out the new grip/s for my newly self made training weapons ^^
-XII- (the topmost picture, has a slightly curved and slightly round grip and the end is thicker)

-XIII- (other 3 pictures, has an oddly shaped grip that i find suitable for both of my hands, grip is also kinda rectangular shaped. non traditional)

Note to self +>
- broke a total of 11 in the past 5 years; DO NOT use it to block FROM THE SIDES when sparring using it.

Note to EK+>
- how's the lance i made for u ler?.... it's been so long since we last fought. lets go berserk and out of control again yeah? =D (that's one of the best weapons i have ever made man.. dun leave it in one corner untouched and rust)

ANYWAYS=>
Father: Your neck there very hairy, i later help u cut
Me: Neck only arrhhhh? ok lor.
Father: *snip snip* *shave shave* *snip snip*
Me: *Open eyes and scream*
Me: OMG !!!! U CUT THE BACK DE HAIR ALSO?
Father: Long liao mah.
Me: WALAOOOOOOOOO !!!!

and so... that was how my father scammed me q.q ....
I know my back and neck there a lot hair, cant blame me mah.. even neck de front and sides and face also gt hair, but those i can see de i ownself shave off ler... T.T then he go cut more than he said he would... nuuuu.... nw i cant call myself a lycan anymore >< anyways="">
- haish... o.o still available, nobody want....

To Wind: BB(bWang brothers) HUAT AH !!!! =D , SIEG HAIL !!!!!
To EK: _!_ the spider lah, life steal 1000%.... scratch me once jiu full health, SIEG HAIL !!!!!
To KZ: hmmm.... i suggest that you abandon F.I.E.L.D and complete K.E.Y first.. o.o before they find u again.
To TW: REMEMBER BRING CORN FLOUR WHEN U GO LOL !!!!
To WH(wanhoon): ^^ Happy birthday ~
To SW: No lah... o.o the orh chehs on my arms is frm that day i spar with AMTJ that time tio de.. >.>||| fck his style of using spear, using both sides like hes dual wielding liddat.
To JK: =D AH LEHH LEHH !!!!, SIEG HAIL !!!!!!
To AMTJ (Ang Mor Tai Jian): lol.... nice match, how is your arm, leg, foot and stomach? >=)
To jEM: ^^ good luck for ur singing competition, rmb dun use whistle register !! o.O

5:18

2009-03-28T02:18:00.000-07:00

Damn... failed 2.4 again on friday.... if i chiong at full speed, i will run out of energy within like 15 secs but i will become the fastest, thus covering more distance. but 2.4 is run 3 rounds, so that tactic wont work.... jogging all the way lasted a total of 11 minutes before i run out of energy and my asthmah triggers... still fail in the end.. knn..

ANYWAY=> yo... o.o these few days never blog cuz i've quite busy and have been trying to make up for all the hours of sleep i've lost thanks to insomnia by taking ridiculously long naps.

*Blink blink*
*sees -You signing into msn*
*look down at the keyboard*
*types a message*
*blink blink*
*kena dao*
*look up at the ceiling*
*sigh*
*look at the comp screen again*
*no reply...*
*sigh*
*shouts: Fuck -YOU _!_*

BLaRg.... all of a sudden i feel so lonely and i find life so meaningless..... meh.... .... mehhh.... oh well, i'll never get the love i need from friends anyway (huggles.. kisses... sayangs... someone to care about me and someone for me to care about.. things like that) ....... ok sua... ... ... ... so......

Vlad Christopher is officially ..... finding a.... STEAD !!!!! (Lame rite?)
If gt anybody wants me or wants more information about me... add my msn or contact me somehow (Contact details are on the Top left hand corner, but ill type it out again...)

MSN: sehgalgal@hotmail.com (it means im ugly till girl see liao will seh diao)
HP no. :97925713

Staying in tampines.... ave 5
Name: Vlad Christopher 刘杰琦
Age: 16
Weight: 70kg
Height: ard 170cm

Staying at: Tampines AVE 5, near the sports hall
Other details:
got STM, brain ageing very fast....
Mindset and the way i think and feel and react is different from others...
Missing certain human emotions...
Have some emotions that i guess a normal human doesnt have?(part of the reason why ppl call me wierd..)

12:49AM

2009-03-25T09:49:00.000-07:00

>.> dont know what to blog about la........ went for jogging with wind in the evening, in the afternoon had to stay back for captain's ball thing..... then my friend damn wierd la keep saying he's nt supposed to be here.. dunno what he balls heavy, 1 side 6kg thats why they say he overweight. overall brain functions are still deproving.... *sigh*

Mum's conditions are nt getting any better either... so sian of living liao...

fucking hate this life. =( wish i got someone to hug and when she's sad, be there for her...sayang her or whatever..maybe lend her my shoukder.... damnit im starting to develop another me deep inside that feels nothing but sorrow and regret... a me that only knows how to pity and feel sorry for himself... and yes i feel fucking pathetic >.> problem now is that i dun like it when people pity me/ i pity myself either. nothing is working out..... knnb...

Skipping art so much that im starting to dislike art... i simply.. like... NO inspiration... it's like... everything i draw nwadays are nt interesting or nice..... I CANT EVEN PHRASE OUT WHAT I WANT TO SAY ANYMORE?!!! FUCK LA.... if this continues on i will kill myself before i fully become retarded.

_!_ Insomnia, brain cells degenerating and more brain cells dying before being replaced by new ones.

5:14pm

2009-03-24T02:14:00.000-07:00

Elder brother's leg kana a wound, based on past experiences i think the wound is actually rotting quite badly.... today went out to get the broom and mop to clean the floor that time saw mum kneeling in a corner crying, the voices in her head are telling her that someone passed away again >.>

things are slightly getting better, gt 1 less burden to carry lol... but im still damn bored of this life.. the same old ruitine every single day man...... already starting to feel love sick ler... q.q

O.o anybody want to chat just call/sms my HP or add my msn, i gt nth to do anyway.

the wound on my right shoulder bao kai again today while i was in sch.... whole day i had to carry my bag using my useless left hand.... lol.... right shoulder stinked like hell and hurt so much that my eyes gt watery afew times when that part bumped into things.

10:24PM

2009-03-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

lol third time in my life using gel,
bathe come out, combed nicely liao then popped open the cover cap of the gel bottle and then i thought to myself : "What the fuck is wrong with u? comb hao hao liao how put gel? -,-||| ....."
so i had to apply the gel on my hands, then use it on my hair AND comb everything.... all over again
(I know i si bei buang la horr... first time trying Sin de fringe idea, mai laugh can? =.=)

Hehe, ANYWAY=> ... tonight i'm in a good mood. :3 there is only chemistry homework and i skipped the staying back for art thing(shit.. it's becoming a habit... skipped how many times ler?) weather is quite cooling and i get to relax and slack.

Time table changed.... kns.. nw i am trying to catch up to every single new change in everything then i havent gotten used to it... havent catch up jiu gt new changes pop out of everywhere... >.> starting to develop a sense of fear of going to school, it's like dun want to go la.. not really scared to go.... dunno how explain.. the more i say the wierder it sounds

Woke up at like.. 4+ 5+ PM today... o.o feels like nvr go sch but gt memories of being in school.... im really becoming retarded ler..... oh well

In Other News:
The english test i got 25/40. Top in class is 27/40 lol. i hate being the first but i like being the second =D so hope i can dig up 1 more "correct teacher mark as wrong" question LOL.

mmm nth much to talk abt ler.... just wanna lie back, relax and enjoy the cooling night.

To AOR: Thursday night 8PM GMT+8 = PHOF run, dun be late or we will start without whoever is late lol. Windigo chan~ screw u, u are so tanking this time. i've been the Main Tank for 3 times in a row already...)
To jEM: *sigh* mei ah.... stop cutting ler lei..... o.o watching blood come out very fun meh...?
To YH: wth lol, after u left my right shoulder start to show orh cheh patches LOL. next time mai wear watch, later ur wrist bleed again when i counter attack u.

12:35

2009-03-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

>.> yep.... in the end nvr sleep again.... fan lai fu chu until hair all stand up messy like fck... see liao also ownself dulan lol.... use hands press down hair will pop up again.

dunno what is making me so mentally disturbed and unstable leh........
o.o ytd de sunrise and sunset kinda evil looking/a very ominous feeling.... see the colour of the sky...

12:34

2009-03-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

woah dulan... lie down at 12 AM nw 12:34 AM jiu wake up ler.... knn if liddat then every night i also dunid sleep liao...
haish..... si bei dulan ah..... 12:55AM ler cant sleep...........

Running a body check...
Sense of taste: No noticable problems
Sense of touch: No noticable problems
Sense of hearing: No noticable problems
Sense of smell: Flu... what do u expect..?
Sense of Sight: Slight warpings
Respond time: Slow
Thinking speed: Very Slow
Mind's flexibility: Super stiff
Creativity: 30% active
Weapon mastery: 70%~80% less than usual abilities

Unnatural Status....
Insomnia
Flu

Other status....
Panic mode
Slight berserk/frenzy mood
Inability to concentrate
Sight and mind warping once in awhile

Remarks....
Brain so exhausted and stiff right now that i am unable to even use weapons properly, first movement clashes with my own next movement.

2:29PM

2009-03-19T23:29:00.002-07:00

>.> ok fine... explanation of the lyrics to the old song on my blog, as requested by TG
(Note: ^^ u suck big time lol)

But her words are eaten by the wind
= the words she say are covered up by the wind, the guy couldnt hear it

She carries the evening in her chest
= evening means the end of the day, as in end of her life lor.... simply terms:
smth that will kill her.

ANYWAY=>
-*sigh* woke up at like.... 3+ AM..... >_> then cannot fall asleep...... then keep fan lai fu chv~ still cannot fall asleep.... dulan..... hopped off the bed and come msn but everybody is already offline ler LOL.... sat on the sofa and turned on the TV but there was nth nice to watch.... wanted go downstairs and run till im tired lol, dad caught me trying to get out of the house at 3AM+ so i simply hopped back in bed.....

Mum's condition isnt getting any better as well...im starting to develop a second me within me.... like the old me(Pri sch friends will know what im talking about ^_-) which i can say is 100% opposite of what i am now.... trying nt to continue developing that me or else sooner or later the current me will fully die off.

Intuitive learner: Highly impatient.... o.o cool... im really an intuitive learner after all....

*sigh* ok... relationship that side ah...... mmmmm...... still feeling damn depressed lor..... i also dunno why lah.... why is my mindset so much more diff than other ppl de....? hais..... trying to consider and picture out the different possible scenarios as a normal human would.....

Results=>
-she's hurting me with her actions...?
OR
nobody is hurting me... im hurting myself cuz my mindset is different...?

cant find a solution....... i have so many feelings and emotions that others do not have; i also do not have many feelings and emotions that "normal" people have.... *sigh* is there nobody that understands or will try to understand me...? =x nw i just feel like a Guai Wu.... Meh....

Oh well at least i made smth nice for myself to eat:

had this grapefruit as desert lol....

3/19/09

2009-03-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

*(Translation of the song on my blog)*
(changed song liao~)
They stand with their arms tightly around each other
A mixture of flesh, so rich during their days
Where the sea touches the land
She wants to tell him the truth

But her words are eaten by the wind
Where the sea ends
Trembling, she holds his hand
and kissed his forehead

She carries the evening in her chest
And know that she will wither away
she lays her head on his lap
And asked for a last kiss.

And then he kissed her
where the sea ends
her lips, thin and pale
And his eyes well up with tears

And then he kissed her
where the sea ends
her lips, thin and pale
And his eyes well up with tears

And then he kissed her
where the sea ends
her lips, thin and pale
And his eyes well up with tears

The last kiss,
was so long ago

That last kiss,
he does not remember it anymore.

ANYWAY=>
-ok..... so it's 1 day good mood, 1 day bad mood, 1 day BAD mood, 1 day SI BEI bad mood ....

Sorry team.... ytd i gong gong keep cannot follow the pace.... i SWEAR i got lift leg... but i dunno is me wrong timing or someone never lift leg...... end up i keep falling forward.......

my senses are going haywire as well.. sense of touch... sense of taste... sense of smell..... wtf yesterday i got into a wierd Full panic + Sleepy mode....... full panic mode is when my heartbeat suddenly goes super fast and i stay super alert, allowing me to move very fast for awhile...but then i felt so bloody sleepy at the same time wtf?!....... sense of taste is the most fcked up........ everything tasted sour yesterday... sour to the extreme...... coach giv the sweets tasted so wierd as well..... grape tastes like green apple.... mineral water tasted like lemon juice..... cola tasted like.... I DONT KNOW?!

=x dad forced me to cut my nails.... damnit.... bye bye dear claws.... ill miss u....

asd

2009-03-17T03:19:00.000-07:00

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

>.> do till headache only get 150.... the 160+ is i ownself change de... lame rite?

* 115-124 - Above average (e.g., university students)
* 125-134 - Gifted (e.g., post-graduate students)
* 135-144 - Highly gifted (e.g., intellectuals)
* 145-154 - Genius (e.g., professors) <<< ure kidding me... like ill believe i am a professor
* 155-164 - Genius (e.g., Nobel Prize winners)
* 165-179 - High genius
* 180-200 - Highest genius
* >200 - "Unmeasurable genius"

some stuffs to add to my kor de new motor... :

if u guys ever happen to see any of those stuffs on his motor, please call IMH IMMEDIATELY

*Kope from my elder brother de blog de C-BOX LOL* laughed my ass off reading it

Sat, Feb 28th 2009, 16:27

edwarddie: oerm gf? bro.. tis few days raining leh.. u not scared of lightning meh lol

Sat, Feb 28th 2009, 18:58

vcxiii: neh neh.. tio lightning also u tio

Sat, Feb 28th 2009, 20:35

edwarddie: perm gf sia... u mean now got temp no perm la.. oic..

Sun, Mar 1st 2009, 07:55

vcxiii: neh neh

Mon, Mar 9th 2009, 00:33

blurling: i saw ur sms de nxt day. HAHA

Mon, Mar 9th 2009, 02:28

vcxiii: chey!

Mon, Mar 9th 2009, 09:43

blurling: LOL and i just went in on like tuesday night. ive gotten wad i wanted. Lols

Mon, Mar 9th 2009, 17:15

vcxiii: i going in this sat again

Mon, Mar 9th 2009, 17:15

vcxiii: go there find ah gua hahaha

Tue, Mar 10th 2009, 00:56

blurling: faint. de ah gua there cannot make it lo. changi de even bettr.

Tue, Mar 10th 2009, 01:11

edwarddie: ah beng bike... dunno who at first sae mai zeng his bike.. now even worse den my car.. can go chingay le

Fri, Mar 13th 2009, 18:18

vcxiii: =x eh at least still not as striking as urs k.. ur wan flashing white light summore majiam inside zao tian

Sat, Mar 14th 2009, 00:03

edwarddie: i zao tian urs ji tao is lai ang.. lolx.. lai ang bike.. with 2inch tip with head out from bloody hole..

Sun, Mar 15th 2009, 17:40

u know who~: its "ZAO DIAN" not "ZAO TIAN". hmmm 4 got 2 inch head got alot of blood cannot think. heh heh

Sun, Mar 15th 2009, 23:06

sh0ckwav3: lol lao beng bike x=

Mon, Mar 16th 2009, 01:53

vcxiii: who sia u know who.. i duno who!

Mon, Mar 16th 2009, 12:25

EXOSTREET: Check out online guys clothing.. Gal can check out what type of suprise u can give ur love ones.

Mon, Mar 16th 2009, 14:48

vcxiii: eh wan advertise here muz pay fee hor! haha

ANYWAY=>
- Today = 4:58 PM end school, The team i was in came in first in the Trolley race.

Trolley race is like..... 2 planks with alot of ropes connected to it lor.. then whole team of 4 ppl must stay on the 2 planks and co-ordinate PERFECTLY(example lift up leg how much, walk how fast, the gap between the 2 wooden planks)

Afew things i've learnt from this ......... umm.......... errr.............. i guess u can call it a "game" =.= .... there can only be ONE leader in a group(one person shouting the commands .EG. Left or Right) and the rest MUST follow the orders like a robot no matter how tired that person is and we must not let other team's commands confuse us so that it does not end up as the leader shout LEFT and some of us lift right leg while some of us lift left leg....

We also had to overcome several obstacles such as height and weight and the speed, if too fast some might nt be able to catch up... stuff like that... kinda stupid game la... the members of my team were all able to not get distracted by other team's commands and we simply worked together as though we had one mind(got used to each other's timing by the 2nd time) piece of cake =D

Other than that..... struggled to stay awake for the rest of the day.... mmm.. nth much to talk about ler.... last 3 hrs have been stoning ....

To the team i was in today: Nice teamwork guys >=D nice synchronisation !!! LETS WIN THE AWARD TOMOROW !!! I BLANJA DRINKS IF WE WIN LOL !!!!

6:42PM

2009-03-16T03:40:00.000-07:00

To Christine: Lao po, that's all i needed to hear... that's all you needed to say. ^^ ilyt <3!!
To JY: =D try using lemon juice to get rid of the rust before it's too late LOL...
To JX: ^^ lol, feeling better after the match ler mah...? aiya that girl is seriously playing with u only de la... just throw away liao, mai waste ur time... dun believe it man.. u actually got feelings for someone like her?!
To JX de didi: ... what qiqi? u good hor? infront of girl jiu whole person change, u think u very cool ah? lan eh... ppl like u disgust me... -.- btw those girls i dunno de so its not like i give a damn.. but my parents gave me a name, call me by my proper name. call me qiqi again and ill rip out your tongue and your fingernails. if that is not enough ill drill holes in your knee cap and set u on fire.
To EK: o.o mai emo liao la....WALAO WHERE GOT HARDCORE GAMER SO SAD OVER TEST RESULTS DE !!!! nobody will laugh at u fail maths de la !!!!*turn behind and laugh secretly*
To Wind: When are we going to finish ur wep? o.O me plan hao hao all the parts ler, grips de wrap u buy lol... mai buy shoelace ask me use that to wrap, i know how but i suck at it... use shoelace tie = confirm CMI LOL...

ANYWAY=>
-T-T walao... holidays still nid go back sch.... nb..... today de is 9:00AM till 5:00 PM !!!! wtf.... tmr de is 8:45AM to 5:00PM...... i going demand 4:45 jiu end, since start 15 mins earlier, end 15 mins earlier also. got march holidays = no march holidays at all.....

Wahahahaha.. plan hao hao ler.. Wednesday de i going for.....................................................................................................................................................

HALF DAY !!!! XD then i going Learn Camoufladge and dissapear LOL. 5 PM end is already compromising the amount of time i have to spend with my lao po.... STILL 9:00 PM END...? PUI ! im not going guai guai sit there till 9:00PM... better watch out ah !!! >=D im trained in Classroom warfare de, yi you ji hui i will POOF !

Spikey hair Trainer and Ang mor with rabies Trainer tried very very hard to influence us(of cuz they are doing it for a good cause... for our own good... they are not bad people), powerful words and strong deep voices projected with like.. how describe... smth like a sincere but serious feeling.... that shakes us awake.... o.o but i born jiu like.. got the ability to triple task all the time... unintentionally(as in im nt even thinking abt it when im doing it)... so i always notice things and am always actively thinking of other things even when im busy doing other stuff.... ... their little gay speech ended up boh yong..... >.< (so sorry, Spikey hair and ang mor with rabies)

the Bottoms up and Everybody up de activity was... quite fun... bloody Ong Bak sitting there extra keep staring at us, give us her Swuay aura... end up we fall down so many times.... kns...
floor so dusty my butt become black black hands become black black shirt de back also become black black.... see liao sian diao dun feel like washing.....

Overall the program is still ok, quite fun......

11:47 PM

2009-03-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

almost went berserk in the afternoon today... kor shouted at my mum and my mum's mental condition is not very good... saw mum crying and i tried very hard to control myself from going berserk..... i shouted "i didnt know my elder brother is like this de" and he was quite hurt as well.... damnit....

relationship is not really working out.... everyone is telling me to give up... but i know i will not give up until the very final moment when she tells me herself she no longer wants me...

Snapped project V.U.A.S today..... it is nw beyond repair... wasted so much of my blood... =(

Tmr gt talk in sch from 9:00 AM till 5:00 PM .. same for Tuesday.. Wednesday is 9:00 AM to 9:00 PM... if i go first day see is useless de i going buy MC liao.... aaaaaaaaaaaa..... gan lame.. now all my plans to spend time with her is gone.. destroyed... gt 1 week holiday = no 1 week holiday..... kns.... knn... ccb....

haish... my weight in total dropped 17kg... nw is stuck at 70 kg.... wont go down.... why do i want to drop my weight? o.o dont even remember anymore.. lao ren chi dai zhen starting to worsen ler...

Sin, Bear, Wind and Worm/RaINBoW??!!! came over today cuz sin was waiting for his stead and end up nvr go meet his stead >.>|||

nth much else to type ler.... getting sleepy but i wont sleep till 12 AM... i dun wan wake up at 3+ 4+ again....

for you..

2009-03-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

First of all... i know u didnt do anything wrong... something is really screwed up about this relationship ler... this is what i think happened...
You ready? please finish reading what i have been keeping deep inside me for a long time....

It all started(the drifting apart) when that happened wasnt it? ^^ u've known me for a long time ler.(1 whole year) and u know i get jealous easily but yet u went ahead and get that audi couple(what makes it worse is that before u got him, i ALREADY asked u to couple me, but u said u will MIA anytime and i said nevermind just couple, but u insisted on no). your gan sis is that important to u mah? T.T she tell u to get u must get mah? u didnt consider how i would feel about it did u? u were the one that made me start asking u every single thing for example where u are and what u are doing. i also did not get angry about it and start cursing or swearing did i? Please do not forget it was on a day when i was already feeling very depressed and asked u to pei me audi awhile, when that guy popped out of nowhere and end up we didnt spend any time in audi together.....

i noticed i was imperfect for u and starting to become super unreasonable... i tried to catch up to ur changes and i even asked u if im gripping too tightly, do u nid space to breath. what did u do? u just dao me... i tested u this afternoon and u really didnt even bother contacting me at all... i guess the feelings all totally dried up and died ler?

yesterday i was in pain, i was mentally troubled and unstable. the coughing would not stop either. i asked u for help... i told u i needed your love. was whatever u were doing that important that u must just reply me "..." and then dao me all the way till night? u could have told me u are busy or no mood to talk and i would still have left u alone.... u know me de....... dont u..?
(i Changed in the end, u know what happened.. u called me that night and u heard my voice. cannot recognise me huh? could not understand what i was speaking huh? want to see mah? u will faint.)

What u told ur gan father today has hurt me deeply as well. btw dun end up angry at ur gan father... he didnt do anything wrong. i simply asked him for help and for ideas and how to mend the big gap between us. the date idea was however, his idea. i didnt said i wan ask u meet since u already said u are not free so u know i wont ask u about it again, i already said i will WAIT PATIENTLY FOR YOU.. i've tried my best to suit u and to think of the best solution to every single tiny problem we have. i already dont sms my mei cuz i asked and u said u will jealous, to me i've already done everything i could so that our relationship will not have any problems but what have u been doing? what else do u want me to do? i can no longer reach u AT ALL. im irritating huh..?

i told u before already im not unreasonable, if u are busy just tell me, if u are not in the mood to talk u can also tell me. im not a psychopath+stalker. i am the person u call 老公(Lao gong). If u had just replied me saying u are busy Playing or doing project or whatever, i would have just left u alone and waited for u patiently, told u many times reply late also nevermind, but dont TOTALLY dao me all the way but u still did anyway. if u had told me u are busy would i keep smsing and PRAYING u will reply? dont lock me out of your world... let me understand....

Ok that's all i can think of for now. if u did do smth plz tell me cuz i am very sick and tired of this feeling that i am the only one trying to save this relationship.... i dont care what my friends tell me, i will believe in u till the very end, please do not dissapoint that trust with your reply...

14/3/09

2009-03-14T01:28:00.000-07:00

Update about the parents teachers dialogue:
Mathematics (SYLL A) 90.0 grade 1
English Language (SYLL A) 76.7 grade 1
Science (CHEM+BIO) 70.0 grade 2
Combined humanities 44.1 grade U (Fail)
ART NA level 40.0 grade U (Fail)
(absent, didnt hand in 3rd board and whole group ended up not doing the project...)
Chinese N(A) 27.1 grade U (lol... just come to my class and u will know why..)

Overall: Quite satisfied with my marks, at this rate if i buck up for my combined humanities and hand up my art works on time i will be able to make it into 5NA

....

2009-03-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

Starting to cough like shit again... managed to force myself to totally stop coughing from morning till afternoon but the moment the bloody AEM ended i started coughing like mad again.... What is worse is that it is a dry cough... meaning theres no phlegm or w/e and yes.. IT HURTS LIKE FUCKKKKK !!!!

Last day of AEM sucked.... the food at the buffet was great but all i ate was fried rice and FUCKING KAMPUA
LOTS OF HUGE BLOODY SLICES OF ONIONS that dont taste like the type we usually use at home for cooking. Was like crying and laughing and eating at the same time >.>|||
My group wasnt that "ideal" as well. planned and sorted out everything nicely and splitted up the roles but end up i did 90% of the work. All they did was Play L4D and put together EVERYTHING i drew and animated into one picture and they insisted that a 15 secs vid would get us a pass when the requirement is 1 min. WOW? ^^

The fruit punch was great. except i still havent figured out why is it called a punch.. do they box the fruit to get the juice or smth? o_o

Tmr parents teachers dialogue... so far i havent really provoked or upsetted any teachers unless it is about homework, so i hope they dont badmouth me behind my back either and let the event pass through smoothly...

So bored nowdays... nothing to do at home.... hais....... sometimes feel extremely lonely... sometimes feel extremely stressed up..... dont know what is wrong with me la... ate a whole packet of raw noodles before noticing it wasnt cooked yet.... lao ren chi dai zhen... i think i really tio liao...

hais....

2009-03-12T05:48:00.000-07:00

To Christine : Lao po, Ich liebe dich fur immer. hehes ^^ (Yay we didn't sort out everything but we managed to get back to last time liddat anyways..... kinda.... oh well <3)

ANYWAY==>
-woke up at around 3AM+ last night unable to breath... struggled and groped around in the air with my hands as though i can grab air for awhile and tried not to go berserk. In a frenzy kind of mood i took the opportunity since i cant fall asleep and completed Project V.U.A.S in complete darkness.
(This is when the coughing first started)

Went to school as usual and the sch sent us to Singapore Poly(which is on the other side of Singapore.) It was a one way transport kind of trip and lessons ended at 4:30 instead of 6:00 because most of us started playing games and nobody is really doing the work assigned to us (2d Animation).
(Coughing worsened....)

I forgot to save my animation work before the comp crashed and i had to freaking redo everything... zzz i obviously gave up halfway lol. Due to my lack of sleep i was basically staggering throughout the whole day and blacked out a few times while climbing the stairs lol..... slipped afew times but did not fall once =D
(Coughing stopped... )

Fell asleep(Overslept to be exact) in the MRT and had to walk all the way back to Tampines .......... it sucked ..........
(Starting to cough like shit again)

head was whirling by the time i reached home, coughing continued. Took a shit, took a shower and then whipped up something light to eat... took a nap after that and coughed up blood on my right hand and school uniform. Took a picture of my hand after like one hour, kinda dried up and was eating with my hand lol.

Enjoy the picture u sadistic bastards:
Cough baby cough, whatever you are...